=)

Just smile and let everything lay deep down inside our chambers of heart.

P/s: even though it hurts.=X

.....

I am really overestimating myself.I am the one to be blamed, no the others.Why can't I just put everything aside and F-O-C-U-SSSS.damnit.

Nothing is forever.Time passes, things change, people change.Normal, I know.But it's hard to accept the changes.Yeah time is the best medicine. *heartache.

My mind couldn't stop wandering around.Keep thinking bout the past and suddenly I realize that I was gasping for air.Ican'tbreathe.It's like pressure coming from all directions.Ahh..it sucks.




I am lost in the middle of nowhere.:(

I'm back.Again? lol

Well well well.Currently having hols after suffering from the one week plus finals.I am actually quite surprised on how my emotion fluctuated during that one whole month.One word: s-c-a-r-y.Yikes. Not gonna talk bout the exam.I mean,who cares? (ok I do) Ah just forgot bout it.I am going to enjoy my holiday to the fullest before going back to jungle.X)

Couldn't make it to the Graduation Ceremony of CDK on 16th of oct.So yeah went to school today with Yar Vern to collect our cert. It feel kinda sucks that we're labelled as "visitor" instead of "ex-student".Blah.The feeling is just so different.And I hate that look where all the juniors just stared at you like you're an alien or something.Sigh.Perhaps I am just too sensitive but, time change,people change and everything changes.That's life.

When we say "friends forever", is that really so? Ok maybe now we're really close friends and the next year may become not really close and who knows maybe we'll become just some hi-bye friends after few years?
At different phases of life,we experienced a change in environment.Meeting new people and new stuffs.We just got to adapt to those changes in life. And in the end,we'll eventually feel the loneliness as we move on.Pathetic isn't it?It's like nothing last forever in life.Maybe I am being a lil extreme now.Hmm,just ignore me then.X(

...

Something is wrong.Very wronggggggg.

God,I need your help.=(

I am alive.

Yes thank god.I am alive and back in Penang safely.

You have no idea how suffering it is when you are up in the middle of night,coughing non-stop,and with no one by your side.It was inexplicably cold on Monday night.Even though with 2 jackets on,I was still shivering under my thick blanket.
It was 2 o'clock in the morning,my room mates all sleeping soundly, which made me feel even lonely."Life sucks", I murmured.

I feel like dying at that moment.The feeling of suffocating was horrible.With the bit of energy left,I opened the door.The misty dark night and chilly wind causes me to retreat back to my comfort bed.Tears rolled down uncontrollably as I shuddered in agony.I actually thinking of writing a will.(no joke,lol) There's nothing I can do to alleviate my pain.
I shut my eyes tightly and keep thinking:I am going back home.I'll be fine.I am going back home.I am gonna make it till I am home.And...here I am.It's always feel good to be home.♥

I love you,mom, dad and sis.Without them I am nothing.
And I gotta be strong,just keep pushing on.Promised.=)

School's out!

Ho ho ho.Finally.A holiday!!
Can't imagine that I had actually sat for the mid semester test.Feel like screaming out loud right after the invigilator collected my biology paper.Too bad I was in the hall.Stay cool stay cool.Someone's jumping up and down all the way to my sit though.She simply didn't care.XD
Rushed to my room and start packing my stuff.3.30 pm the bus finally departed from college.And here I am in Penang!

Brought some books back to study.Not in the mood weyy."Procrastination is the thief of time" Lol.I know.But holiday is for us to relax and release our tension!Isn't it?hah
Non-stop eating from Thursday till now.Penang food simply is the best!And of course not forgetting the delicious home cook meal.Yumyum.:))

Life in matrics is not that bad.Yea a lot of bumis that's for sure,but once getting use to it then it's no big deal.Food yeah still ok.But still Penang food is the best.xD
Hmm..have to study everyday and the time table is super duper packed.And also finish our homework cause it's impossible there's a day here without homework.Never ever.Especially biology lab report.We have to do the discussion part for bout 2 pages long and just a few information is given.You can see that everyone is so stressed after each and every bio experiment because that means --another report.I always stay up late.Thanks to the reports.=/
Gonna start dissecting mouse after the break I guess.Can't wait can't wait.Hehehe.


"Treasure and cherish the moments of life",that's what I am doing right now.;)

Second post.So far.

Life here?What else.Still as hectic as usual.=/
So many people went home last weekend.Except me.How sad.

Wondering what am I doing for the past 2 days?
Early morning-wake up.study.breakfast.did my homework.study.
After lunch-bath.did my laundry.study.homework.
After dinner-usual routine,walk around to release stress.Or help in digestion.whatever.Back to my room.Study.Again.

Been studying bio for the past 2 days.My brain is currently jammed because of the terms and facts.You know.Gah.And exam is next week.Ish.

Can't wait till Wednesday.I-wanna-go-home.=(