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I am really overestimating myself.I am the one to be blamed, no the others.Why can't I just put everything aside and F-O-C-U-SSSS.damnit.

Nothing is forever.Time passes, things change, people change.Normal, I know.But it's hard to accept the changes.Yeah time is the best medicine. *heartache.

My mind couldn't stop wandering around.Keep thinking bout the past and suddenly I realize that I was gasping for air.Ican'tbreathe.It's like pressure coming from all directions.Ahh..it sucks.




I am lost in the middle of nowhere.:(

I'm back.Again? lol

Well well well.Currently having hols after suffering from the one week plus finals.I am actually quite surprised on how my emotion fluctuated during that one whole month.One word: s-c-a-r-y.Yikes. Not gonna talk bout the exam.I mean,who cares? (ok I do) Ah just forgot bout it.I am going to enjoy my holiday to the fullest before going back to jungle.X)

Couldn't make it to the Graduation Ceremony of CDK on 16th of oct.So yeah went to school today with Yar Vern to collect our cert. It feel kinda sucks that we're labelled as "visitor" instead of "ex-student".Blah.The feeling is just so different.And I hate that look where all the juniors just stared at you like you're an alien or something.Sigh.Perhaps I am just too sensitive but, time change,people change and everything changes.That's life.

When we say "friends forever", is that really so? Ok maybe now we're really close friends and the next year may become not really close and who knows maybe we'll become just some hi-bye friends after few years?
At different phases of life,we experienced a change in environment.Meeting new people and new stuffs.We just got to adapt to those changes in life. And in the end,we'll eventually feel the loneliness as we move on.Pathetic isn't it?It's like nothing last forever in life.Maybe I am being a lil extreme now.Hmm,just ignore me then.X(

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Something is wrong.Very wronggggggg.

God,I need your help.=(

I am alive.

Yes thank god.I am alive and back in Penang safely.

You have no idea how suffering it is when you are up in the middle of night,coughing non-stop,and with no one by your side.It was inexplicably cold on Monday night.Even though with 2 jackets on,I was still shivering under my thick blanket.
It was 2 o'clock in the morning,my room mates all sleeping soundly, which made me feel even lonely."Life sucks", I murmured.

I feel like dying at that moment.The feeling of suffocating was horrible.With the bit of energy left,I opened the door.The misty dark night and chilly wind causes me to retreat back to my comfort bed.Tears rolled down uncontrollably as I shuddered in agony.I actually thinking of writing a will.(no joke,lol) There's nothing I can do to alleviate my pain.
I shut my eyes tightly and keep thinking:I am going back home.I'll be fine.I am going back home.I am gonna make it till I am home.And...here I am.It's always feel good to be home.♥

I love you,mom, dad and sis.Without them I am nothing.
And I gotta be strong,just keep pushing on.Promised.=)

School's out!

Ho ho ho.Finally.A holiday!!
Can't imagine that I had actually sat for the mid semester test.Feel like screaming out loud right after the invigilator collected my biology paper.Too bad I was in the hall.Stay cool stay cool.Someone's jumping up and down all the way to my sit though.She simply didn't care.XD
Rushed to my room and start packing my stuff.3.30 pm the bus finally departed from college.And here I am in Penang!

Brought some books back to study.Not in the mood weyy."Procrastination is the thief of time" Lol.I know.But holiday is for us to relax and release our tension!Isn't it?hah
Non-stop eating from Thursday till now.Penang food simply is the best!And of course not forgetting the delicious home cook meal.Yumyum.:))

Life in matrics is not that bad.Yea a lot of bumis that's for sure,but once getting use to it then it's no big deal.Food yeah still ok.But still Penang food is the best.xD
Hmm..have to study everyday and the time table is super duper packed.And also finish our homework cause it's impossible there's a day here without homework.Never ever.Especially biology lab report.We have to do the discussion part for bout 2 pages long and just a few information is given.You can see that everyone is so stressed after each and every bio experiment because that means --another report.I always stay up late.Thanks to the reports.=/
Gonna start dissecting mouse after the break I guess.Can't wait can't wait.Hehehe.


"Treasure and cherish the moments of life",that's what I am doing right now.;)

Second post.So far.

Life here?What else.Still as hectic as usual.=/
So many people went home last weekend.Except me.How sad.

Wondering what am I doing for the past 2 days?
Early morning-wake up.study.breakfast.did my homework.study.
After lunch-bath.did my laundry.study.homework.
After dinner-usual routine,walk around to release stress.Or help in digestion.whatever.Back to my room.Study.Again.

Been studying bio for the past 2 days.My brain is currently jammed because of the terms and facts.You know.Gah.And exam is next week.Ish.

Can't wait till Wednesday.I-wanna-go-home.=(

Time flies.

Aloha people.If you are wondering why my blog is dead for a month,well,I am currently in Matriculation College of Negeri Sembilan,fyi.
Life here is hectic,with packed time table and schedule.And the orientation week is enough to drive me crazy.Wake up 4am in the morning,sleep at 12.00 am.Just imagine.=/
Quizzes,tests,assignments and reports for every week.Grrrrr.
Miss everything in Penang,especially FFF-food,family and friends. ;)

Will be back on July.Till then.


"Life's a climb,but the view is great".

Food,food and food.

Jalan Tengah Roti Canai.
Breakfast with mom.
14.4.10

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Somewhere near Little cottage.
Brunch with mom.
24.4.10

Best egg tart on earth.Must try must try.

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E-gate
Lunch with mom and dad.
18.4.10

Tesco.
Shopping.
Bom this is for you.

And this.XD

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Somewhere near Jalan Bukom.
Supper.
27.4.10
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Gurney Plaza.
Dinner.
29.4.10

Mini steamboat.

My fav.♥
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Cute right?
Free gift from Sunshine.Lol.

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Homemade :

Jawa mee.Thumbs up

Fried rice.*Thumbs up up

Muffins!!!*thumbs up up up up

Slurrpp.
Hungry?X)

Hah.

See the lil red circle?KFC!!Omg I can't believe I still can have Kfc when I'm studying there.Just discovered the map.Thanks to ys.Yea I know you are like "=.=lll" but I am really excited to see Kfc.Pleaseeeeee stay there until I finish studying.Lol.

Start packing now and I think I am going to bring like 3-4 bags.Yea many stuffs.=(
Hopefully I can get Jpa scholarship.*pray hard pray hard pray hard hard*
Matrics registration on 10th of May and Jpa results is out on 12th.I don't mind staying there for two days.Hahaha.
Wake up early every morning recently to have breakfast with mom.Who knows how long I'll be away from home.
Gonna miss Penang.=(((

Gurney outing.

BOM.I blog this just because of you.Huiyo.

Went to Gurney last Wednesday for a movie.Fetched Aubby then start to search for Bom's house.It took us for almost half an hour.Nearly couldn't drive as I laughed uncontrollably after Aubby pointed at the "Holy Home".My home!Lol.
Had lunch at Sushi King for the RM 2 bonanza thingy.Bom insisted.Ok lo.
Went to Kim Gary after sushi.

Mine.

Bom's.

._____.
Bom busy writing message for uncle Neoh.
He didn't read it by the way.Hah.

Winter warmers after movie.

Aubby's and dol's.

Classic.

The BOMs.Lol

=) or )= ??

Finally.No more honeymoon.

Proudly presented....

Tada!MANZY!XD
Ok it's a she dog.Aubergine emphasized on it.
I talked to her twice,but she never reply me.Not even with a bark.Lol.

I ♥ Manzy!XD

Preparation.

Well frankly saying,I don't read Star newspaper everyday except star-two.
And I started flipping through newspaper just to prepare myself for the interview.=X
And now.Back to star-two only again.X)

The day before interview.Had dinner with mom and dad.

And check it out I got the same question I spotted.Hehehe.

Keep distracted by this.Lol.

Hahahah.

Time to de-stress!!!!

Hello people I am back!!!!Super hyper.Muahahahaha.XD
Ok so about the interview,it's fun,relaxing,erm not that bad just that I can't speak fluent BM.Anyway it's ovvvveeerrrrr!!!!Super hyper again.Hahaha.

Here's my experience for JPA interview:
I had my interview yesterday(5/4/10),2pm,at Pokok Sena Kepala Batas.So I don't really have time to enjoy my birthday.=/
I was there around 12.40pm and I went to search for the name list.After I found my name and panel,signed my name and just walk around to kill time.There are 5 panels and I was in panel 1.Met my friends from Gh and we chit chat for a while.Some of them wished to change their course to pharmacy so they have to fill in some forms.

5 of us were then called to wait in front of the room around 2.30pm and we were given a yellow tag with number.I got my lucky number 4.:D
While waiting for the first group to finish their interview,we tried to talk to each other and promised to discuss and separate the points for the discussion session to show our team work.I have no idea whether it's a coincidence or what but 5 of us are taking medicine.Hmm.
And of course you have to prepare the documents as listed on the letter and the staff will collect it before your interview.
We went in at 3pm,greet the interviewers and start our interview session.There were 3 parts for my group:
1.introduce yourself in BM.(talk bout your co-curriculum activities,post,school,family background and etc)

2.Group discussion in English.We were given 5 minutes to discuss(2 minutes actually)Our topic is "What do you think about the present health care system in Malaysia?"
I think we did this part quite well and I suggested that we give some opinions on how to improve the health care system.

3.BM again.No discussion are allowed.The topic was something like what's your opinion on the quality of education for medicine in Malaysia.And we also told them which country we prefer to go and reasons.I actually stumbled a lot as the interviewer asked the question in English and told us to answer in PROPER BM.Silly me jot down the points in English.Ishhh.But I think overall is still ok and it's not that that that bad.
There was also a Q&A session after that and just ask them anything if you don't understand.

It took about 1 hour for the interview and we said thank you before leaving the room.
I guess that's all I could remember.
Here are some links from my group member and also yiphing.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/joan-ng/for-my-friends-who-are-going-to-jpa-interview-soon-/115810898433525
http://yiphing.net/2010/04/05/jpa-scholarship-interview-2010/
Good luck for those who going for interview and hope you find these links helpful.

Update.

Aloha everyone.
I was busy attending the "Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor" for 5 days at GH.Went to the emergency room, clinics and wards(O&G, paediatrics, orthopaedic and etc) and forensic.If you are wondering, yea I survived.Lol.

Spent my weekend at Cameron Highlands.No planning,just to enjoy the cool air up there and shopping for vegetables and flowers.=]

Currently busy preparing for JPA interview on 5th of April.Nervous man.=/
Hopefully I can get it cause I really don't feel like going to Form 6 or Matrics.=//
Well,this is the life.Take a deep breath and.....enjoyyy.;)

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The blogger is currently busy and lack of sleep and annoyed and tired and u know.=(
Okay you don't know.
Anyway blog will be updated this weekend.I guess.

The sad truth is that excellence makes people nervous.

-Shana Alexander

LOL.